Pretty Pink World [entries|friends|calendar] fluxymomma About Me The essential thing is contingency. I mean that one cannot define existence as a necessity. To exist is simply to be there; those who exist let themselves be encountered, but you can never deduce anything from them. I believe that there are people who have understood this. Only they tried to overcome this contingency by inventing a necessary, causal being. But no necessary being can explain existence: contingency is not a delusion, a probability, which can be dissipated; it is the absolute, consequently, the perfect free gift. All is free, this park, this city, and myself. Links userinfo friends entries my artwork myspace Communities salon womanhood clubhouse Random sugar. [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[09|21|08 2:09am] Narcolepsia, Narcosynesthesia, I do not even know if these words exist. I am thinking of a word, of an ailment I am suffering from and all I can do is rummage through a box of pseudo/perhaps not pseudo medical terms. The word is very simple. Yet I cannot find the means to utter it. The symptoms are not being able to sleep, despite tiredness and fatigue. Para... no impossible. I am suffering from obviously amnesia, it must be the Salmon. The high levels of Mercury is giving me Parkinson's or Alzheimers whichever one is the forgetful disease, my memory is collapsing. I am.... pregnant. Yes, I am. Now what is it I am suffering from? I cannot sleep damn it, and I can just google it: symptoms, not being able to sleep.... common in pregnancy, also short term memory loss... I do not want to look it up because I know it. It's in there, it's in my brain somewhere, I just need to find the correct neuroconnectors and make the damn word come through. epilepsy, no. narcotics, no. paranoia, no. Although this word searching is starting to make me a little bit aggressive and paranoid. What is this word? Think. I cannot sleep. I hate being a.... an insomniac!!!! 2 | Comment? | Edit

just found out [09|13|08 6:26pm] I am pregnant again with baby number two. I'm due for my first ultrasound on the 14th of October. The baby will either be an April or an early May baby. Perhaps I'll give birth on my birthday. That will be quite exciting. Been nauseous as of late. No vomitting though. I am quite excited, and so is hubby. 120 pounds. Last pregnancy I went up to 160. Surprisingly with the breastfeeding I lost all of the pregnancy weight, by the time Z was 5 months I was back at 115. We'll see how this pregnancy goes. I've been trying to eat healthy and drinking a lot of powerade. My doctor told me I need the electrolytes, my blood pressure is really low. I am still breastfeeding even though it's quite tiring. I just can't seem to bring myself into putting Z on formula. He just likes the boobie too much. The comments I've been getting from the in laws about having to put him on there is just too much for me right now. I almost want to smack yima sometimes. Thank god my mom is like me. She was quite happy after she found out and yelled and screamed on the phone when I told her. Yima (m-law) actually said, "is it an accident?" I said, accident? accident? You know, every birth is an accident, it's abortions that are always planned. 6 | Comment? | Edit

[02|24|08 6:15pm] Hi everyone, I know that February is almost over, but it is necessary to share my birthing story, since it finally puts an end to the pregnancy. I don't want to lead anyone into thinking that I've been 10 months pregnant lol anyhow, here it is ( my birthing story ) 3 | Comment? | Edit

[02|13|08 1:49pm] I had our baby boy on February 10th 2008. I will post the birthing story and pictures later on the week because it was pretty traumatic and I'm still recovering. My butt hurts from all the stitches they gave me due to a 3rd/4th degree laceration. I hope everyone is doing well!!! On an up note my milk supply just came in and baby is doing great latching on :) 7 | Comment? | Edit

[02|07|08 11:26am] I didn't sleep well at all last night. My belly was contracting, and my spine hurt. It still hurts right now. I felt bad for hubby, I kept on waking him up... it was so frustrating. I am not sure if this is Braxton Hicks, but it doesn't seem to be going away. My uterus remains contracted, and at times it is painful, at times it isn't, but it remains contracted. Geeze and my back!!!!!!! This is a lot of complaining, but I'm just wondering if I will give birth soon. Hopefully its not Braxton Hicks, but early labor, and yet even if it is Braxton Hicks I wouldn't mind because it is so uncomfortable and painful... I really shouldn't dread labor.... if it happens, it happens. He has to come out one day! Anyhow the pain in my uterus is actually spread out throughout it. Before it would just be to o ne side. Now it is from the top to the bottom towards the sides and my spine/lower back! I was thinking about taking some kind of over the counter pain relief, but I am planning on doing this whole thing natural and if I can't handle the pain now, then how am I going to handle it later on when things get really going. So I'm just going to try to keep my mind off of it. It's sort of hard though when I am not well rested and such. I can still eat right? I drank some water and it was lingering in my throat for a little bit before it went down. I just hope I can actually eat something whole still. I'll probably stick to something light like a sandwich. Anyhow, I hope this is early labor.... if not..... it will come soon hopefully! 5 | Comment? | Edit

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